I think this year has been/is a year of lessons in trust for our family or me at least.
- First my Dad with his accident.
- Finding out I had eye damage from the glaucoma
- The early problems with this pregnancy and thinking we were going to lose this baby.
- My mom hasn't been well.
- Daniel being so sick and no one knowing what he had that would cause him to spike fevers up to a 105.0.
- Then found out that he has Cytomegalovirus (CMV). That has the Dr. very concerned about me, as CMV is NOT kind to an unborn child.
- And now waiting on blood results to find out if I have an immunity to CMV.
I know I don't "Trust in the LORD with ALL my heart", I am sorry to say. I do think trust is a constant thing we are always learning. Each lesson takes us to a new level of trust in the Lord if we let it.
Sometimes I wonder if I know how to trust at all; especially when the Lord keeps giving me lessons in trust over and over. I do know I am excellent at worrying... yes, I know that this is not something I want or even am supposed to be good at, it just comes so naturally. I do feel more at peace right now in waiting for the test results than I thought I would be. Yes, I am scared and at times really worried, but I do have peace too thanks to the Lord, and I am trying to learn what it means to trust with all my heart.
I just wanted to write down some thoughts and ask for you to be praying. We know it is all in the Lord's hands and that is the best place for it to be. It's just leaving it at His feet that I have a problem with sometimes... Back to trusting with all my heart again. Huh? :)
